Just a silly little thing, really....fights.

Fights. These are most definitely silly little things.

After fights, with friends, with parents, with boyfriends/girlfriends, there's always that awful feeling in the pit of your stomach. 

If you have wronged, you feel awful.

If you have been wronged, you feel awful.

If you've both, then the feeling is just....awful. 

Someone dear to me once said that when they fight with people, they can't stay angry for long because they begin to imagine what would happen if that person died. 

No last embrace

No affectionate words

No "goodbye"

Just died. 

 What then? What would you do? 

And then I ask myself, what would I do? I'd feel awful. And that's an understatement.

Sometimes after fights, you wonder if you should hurry up,  fix the problem, and make up for lost time, or if you should just step away. You could hurt the person even more if you talk to them while you're still hurting.

Maybe I've never stopped hurting from what they've done in the past, which is why I've just hurt them. 

So I pose the question: step back or step forward?

My advice....? 

I'll let you know. 

                                                     Love Always,

                                                              Delphi

P.S. "There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love". 

                           - Bryan H. McGill

Just a silly little thing, really...performing.

Performing. 

My soul mate for eternity.

My dream of dreams. 

The only thing I have fallen completely and utterly in love with. 

Maybe a little dramatic, but hey, it's theatre. 

I went to go see a Takarazuka (Japanese theatre troupe in which all roles, including male ones, are played by females) show today; a musical based on the movie "Sabrina", starring Audrey Hepburn. As I watched all of the performers dance and sing their curtain call, I had the following epiphany: 

I am not a person who is generally happy with myself; I always feel that I can do better at everything I do, that I could be kinder, stronger, a better person.

I have always loved theatre because I am handed the opportunity to become a different person.

And today I realized that the day I know that I am truly happy with everything about myself, is the day that I won't feel a need to do theatre for that reason. I am sure it does not mean I won't continue theatre, for it is an ever-burning flame in my heart that I know will never extinguish, but I do know that once I no longer feel the need to run away, I can pursue it simply because I enjoy it and simply because when I'm on that stage, nothing else matters. I am given the opportunity to show the world who Delphi Nina Borich is, and I am given the chance to shine. 

                                                  Love always,
                                                           Delphi

P.S. The machine won once again. 

P.P.S. "Shine your light!" 

                        -Tamra Glaser